It was 5:28 in the morning yesterday when I got the reason why I failed to make chiffon cake once in a while.
I was very excited and almost shouted "I got it!" Instead of shouting, I took the picture above.
This year, I already made 11 whole cakes, and two were failures. They were good tastes but the failures were they didn't rise as tall as I expected. I didn't know what was wrong.
But when I was making dough yesterday, I made a huge mistake which made me found the reason of the possible failure.
So I guessed this cake was absolutely failure before baking.
Fortunately or unfortunately, my guess was right. It didn't rise. I was planning to give it to the family who was going to be gathered here for the memorial service, but I couldn't give it to them.
In Buddhism, there is a saying, "Daigi-Taigo, Shogi-shogo, Fugi-fugo（大疑大悟、小疑小悟、不疑不悟）" which literally means "Bigger doubt, bigger enlightenment. Smaller doubt, smaller enlightenment. Without doubt, no enlightenment.
After experiencing a big failure, I have understood this saying as follows.
"If you made a big mistake, you'd get a chance of big discovery. If you made a small mistake, your discovery may be smaller. But without making mistakes, you cannot get discovery."
While eating this failure cake, I now have an another discovery.
This must be the reason why I am gainning weight!