When I deliver my message or sermon or Dharma talk, I don't write what I'm going to say. But because of this fact, I have experienced I couldn't find the words while talking. Sometimes I said something unnecessary and wasted words. sometimes I forgot to say something important. Sometimes I regretted for what I said. Above all, I have experienced embarrassments many times.
I believe many people don't want embarrassment. However, there is at least one good thing about embarrassment.
For me, that is a motivation of writing. I do want to write whenever I felt like sinking into the floor.
Mistakes or failures have given me opportunities to realize what I wanted to say and what I missed to say. And it was because I felt embarrassed, I can definitely wish I don't want to feel embarrassment next time.
Yesterday at our New Year's Party, I should not have been MC without writing even a program. I felt lots of embarrassments last night.
But now I have something I want to write....thanks to the embarrassments.